Plans, plans, plans

So first, before plans, I want to talk about tonight. Ben and I recently joined a small group with our church (as in last week... so this was our second week). We started going to this church a few months ago and thought it would be good to get to know people. Tonight they invited a couple who are planning to be missionaries with New Tribes in PNG (Papau New Guniea), and I always think it's inspiring to hear from missionaries. I don't really think I feel called to missions like New Tribe missions... not that God can't change my heart, but I don't think those are mine and Ben's passions... but I still think it's amazing what God is doing through that ministry... I mean... people going to a tribe that has never truly heard of Christ and sharing the message... so powerful!!! Okay, that was just a side note... onto what I came on here to write about...

Last night I went with Ben's sister Becca to see Marley & Me. Now I'm not really a dog person (I don't like things that jump up on me and have nasty breath), but the movie was good. The thing I got from it the most is that it's okay for our plans to be changed. The main lady in the film says at one point (and this is not an exact quote), "None of this was in my plans!! But I wouldn't change it for the world." (referring to the fact that she has 3 children, a crazy dog, and is a stay-at-home mom living in Philadelphia). I loved this. I have a problem, I admit. I make plans way too much. I want to plan my life, and I don't know how to stop. At this point, I'm at a crossroads. Ben is working construction, and I'm a major in English Education. So, we could live here our whole life, him working construction and me teaching in a high school. And I like that life. For the most part. I think I would enjoy it. But then I have this other huge passion which is missions and reaching out to those who have less than us or who have been treated wrongly, in countries other than America in particular. And, honestly, I have no idea which one my life will choose. I don't know where I will be in 10 years. I can see myself in both. There are pros and cons to both. On top of all this, I wonder and try to figure out where children will fit in. And truly, I want to follow God... but I also want to plan, and it's so hard to make myself stop planning. The movie was a good reminder though that it's okay. Things will be fine even if I my life goes completely different than I imagine or plan. Because I believe in God, I can trust this even more... the way my life goes is completely in God's control, and I am so thankful that I know he has plans to prosper me and not harm me... so I will be okay. :)